Have been strange lately... Think this is the closest word I can find. Alot of things has been happening. I guess the NS reality is finally slipping in slowly and I'm really starting to feel something about it. I can only pray hard for the future. Someone told me, "you have to start planning for the future, moreover you are the eldest son, should start planning now, you are already an adult." Wow, like I really thought about that before. It was definately a reality shock. Going into adulthood is definately not fun at all but all has to go through it sooner or later.

I really spent time thinking giving it some thoughts and came up with some plans. But all I can say is that it's just a rough plan. No details are down yet. Maybe it's because alot of things are still not confirm like in army will I be full time or 8 to 5? See it's an unknown fact. There are many choices to make and I'm really lost in all the choices like choosing a fish in the sea.

Suddenly I feel stagnant... Everything has suddenly stopped growing. It just keeps going on the same way. I'm really going crazy soon. Cannot stand this kind of life. I have an urge to emerge above all this things but I'm just stuck. I wanna do alot of things but army is really restricting me. Cannot stand it. Why must all guys go through NS. Ahhhh... Wasting my time away...

Shall not complaint anymore. Ha ha... God is good all the time. You are the peace that guards my heart, my help in times of need. Depending on you. Help me!!!