City Of Angels

Good and bad times

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Many things happened this few days. How shall I put it... There has been good and bad times. Well, let's end off well, so I'll start with the bad things.

I relly have no time to prepare myself physically. Ha ha... Well, I managed to have my own PT training. And my timing was 12.59... Booo... And I only manage to pull 3 and 1/2. Oh my goodness, really God bless me... The full dress has just ended, the place is too small as we went to a studio. So we just did a rough extrodinary dance. The item was not shown yet. Maybe I should put it this way, trust in the Lord Your God!!! Do you get it??? And this also means there will be another practice tomorrow. This is going crazy, I am suppose to teach Yong Guang the J7 dance as we have a performance next friday. And I'm simply too busy with this present dance at hand and all the timing seems to be clashing. Haiz... I think I can only put it on Sunday than and this means I really have no time to rest before I enter the army. Wah... Shiong...

Well, there are many more things but I don't wanna bore you further. Let's talk about the happy things. I will be leading a praise song for main Children Church service this sat at Church. Yeah!!! I'm so excited but at the same time anxious. Really feeling a little lost. But I shall wait upon the Lord... Ha ha...

The pressure has came in full force. Many times I fall, but the Lord picked me up. I am very weak, but the Lord is the strongest. The greatest enemy always starts with a thought. If your mind can be influenced, than you'll be harmed. Renew my mind, stay focused, put aside all distractions and seek the Lord.

8/31/2006 04:03:00 AM

Forgiveness...

Saturday, August 26, 2006

I fully understand forgiveness as a lifestyle. Let me tell you, it is not easy. Especially when you get to be with that person daily and you need to LUN!!! But by hook or by crook, THONG is the word. If you can see how much I have LUN, you will understand how much I have THONG there. And this is crazy. I'm giving up my work to do a "social work", which means free labour. And this is what I get in return. Come to think about it, my rate outside is much better and I get to do whatever I want to.

Please allow me to vent it all out for once. People are the strangest thing on planet earth. You cannot live without them but you need to live without them at times when they get _______. Well they can really make or break your happiness. Happiness is a decision. You can choose to be happy. But some people makes your choice so much more difficult.

There are alot of people whom I know backslided because they have conflict of perspective to their leaders. Wow!!! I always tell them this is not a perfect Church and the members are not perfect. How new is that excuse? You don't need a super intelligent person to tell you that. And allow me to say this, Christians are really more and more protected, but in another way they are spoilt. Yes, we do want the best talents, music, lightings, environment, preacher, ... .... But they forgot that if they do not guard their hearts, renew their minds daily, they are just going to another party. Sometimes I wonder why Christians can really get on my nerves. They think they are SOOOOO GOOD, but they are just a frog in a well. And I mean it, a FROG IN A WELL. They only experience the best but they do not know how much it takes to get there and they think it's instant. Taking things for granted. Well, than God bless you. If you do not want to work hard, than be sure than your downfall is near. If you just want enjoyment and no hard work, that get out of my way. I have been through so much and still going to. If you do not wanna work, than go to a community club instead.

Anyway enough of all the problems. Remember to be like me, always lift up your eyes on Jesus. Ha ha... He is always my solution. Even if I may not be in the wrong, He is my eternal judge. Many times I feel wei que but He is my educator, encourager, empowerer. Ha ha... Help me forget. But I know it's going to be hard as I have to see _______ almost daily. But it's going to be over soon. I wanna work, I have stopped all because of this. But I don't care now, I will work. My finances are running low again. But You are my provider. Amen!!! Jesus is FIRST in my life!!!

8/26/2006 01:42:00 AM

Final lap...

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

I have completed the whole routine and have finish teaching them. For a normal teacher, this is the job. But as a good steward, I have to finish up everything. From teaching, to timing, to steps, to cleaning up, to music and even costume. Ha ha... I'm definately a genius. Cannot say they are the best dancer. Ops, maybe "dancer" should not be used in the first place. Oh well, who cares. God uses ordinary people to shame the extraordinary people in the world. Ha ha... And I like it this way. This is another extreme makeover for me. This time round is dancer makeover. Ha ha... Maybe I have the talent to makeover people. Interesting, hooooo!!! Ha ha... Oh well, tomorrow will be a long day. Will be fasting for the outreach. At the same time, I will be starting to teach from afternoon. Will finish up the teaching tomorrow and positioning. It is definately my last "accomplishment" before I enlist.

Many people told me things to take note in the army. But I'm still wondering if I can really take it. Maybe I'm a little "not so bothered" about army. It's so near yet it's still the last thing on my mind. And it's a good thing. Don't know how to describe it. But I don't think it will an enjoyment. Neither will it be very jia lat (I think). Oh well, all guys have to go through it.

I think I did some self evaluation after my final dance performance with the dance ministry on saturday night. It felt a little strange. It's different. I will keep this feeling with me. It was the Lord! I felt every movement penetrated the atmosphere. I really enjoyed myself. It was more than dancing, it was a fight against the enemies. Ha ha... Hold it there... I'm really getting a little more naggy as the day goes by. What is happening??? Ha ha... I'm really more and more not my usual self. Or maybe my communication skills have improved. Oh well, it doesn't matter.

God uses ordinary people who are yielded to Him totally to shame the world. He is not looking for the perfect one. But the ones who are willing and have a broken and contride heart. He will mould it to the correct one which He can use. He is definately a magnificent potter.

8/22/2006 12:52:00 AM

Awesome closure to the week

Monday, August 21, 2006

Have been busy choreographing and teaching a dance for my sub zone evangelistic outreach. There was also many recordings this week for CHCC album. I did parts for a few songs. Think it's coming to an end soon. Everything is moving onto a closure.

This week we had Rev. Dr. A. R. Bernard with us for our weekend conference. He is simply anointed with the wisdom of God to preach. His theory are so one of a kind and it really is from God. He has blown my mind away. His main aim is to educate, encourage and empower us so that when we have all these 3 things, we will be able to move on to do this 3 things to someone else. And this will than continue down into a trend. He made many statements in his messages.

Friday Servive:
You are limited to the knowledge in your mind and the context of your character.
Everyone is to move from general revelation to specific revelation and when God gives you a specific revelation, you are more empowered to do the things you are called to.
The main problem of Churches today is ignornace about God.
Therefore, we need to represent Christ in a dynamic way to the world.
Vision always determines methods but when method preceeds vision, you'll be stuck and die eventually and yet not know it.
All human face the future with either apprehention or anticipation.
In your captivity, God will give you hope.
We are too busy finding what the devil is doing but we fail to see what God is doing in them.
Relationship speaks of trust; when there is trust, you have authority to speak into their life.
You cannot lead people you fear.
Knowledge translates into authority
Articulate your faith.
Write the vision and make it simple, so that you can run with it.
Specificity is the basis for cooperation.
Our freedom comes from submission.

Sunday Service:
God gives you relationships and resources in life.
Relating is an art.
Pattern for relationship ->
Introduction -> Aquaintance -> Friendship -> Intimacy
Do not wait to repent or release forgiveness to the relationship you value.
Everyone presents the ideal as courtesy but it takes a process to discover the reality.
KNOWLEDGE is POWER!!!
Knowledge of the TRUTH is even GREATER POWER!!!
We are responsible to be intelligent.
Knowledge starts from information.
Information -> Mind -> Beliefs -> Self esteem -> Action/Behaviour -> Results -> Habits -> Success/Failure
You need to change the way you process the information.
We ask a question to either get an information or to stimulate a thought.
What is the devil telling you?
God sowed the piece of new information in human heart and send them into the marketplaces.

I hope I didn't bore you. Ha ha... Anyway it's been a long time I posted. So please allow me to be a little more wordy. Dr. Bernard is really knowledgeable. I hopw he can come back next year and I can be released from camp. Ha ha... There is always 2 sides to any matter. Why choose to be sad when you can be happy. Happiness is a choice. Learn to live with it.

Time may fly, season may change. My Father's love for me is unchanging. I love, because You first love me.

19 more days

8/21/2006 03:03:00 AM

tired

Sunday, August 13, 2006

All i can say now is tired. Ha ha... Today's dance practice was cancelled. Think the attendance wasn't that good. I'm left with 2 weeks. Ah.... Anyway we will start practice this week. Another good news. I'm doing recording tomorrow for parts at the studio. Will be getting busy. Ok, I'm too lazy to think now. Very tired, brain freeze...

God laughs... You do not know what He has in stored for you.

8/13/2006 07:34:00 PM

hApPy BiRtHdAy SiNgPaOrE!!!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Happy birthday Singapore!!!

We did 2 song performance near Punggol Plazza this morning. There was quite a big crowd that's around. 2 different groups approached us to ask for our contact details for future work collaborations. It was definately a great exposure. The only thing that was not working right is the sound. Keeps coming in and out. EQ was also very badly done. Maybe it's because the sound crew is not from our church. Overall, good!

Initially thought after this I could take a break but my sub zone is coming up with a rock concert on 1st Sept. I will have to choreo another hip hop dance item and teach them. Even the song has to be done by me. Really very jia lat... One after another. This will be another very tight performance. Only have around 2 to 3 weeks to come up with everything. I heard they are short of BV's so maybe will be singing. But I'll have to see if I have recordings.

That's all for today. God is good. Find rest, my soul.

8/10/2006 01:23:00 AM

heal me...

Wednesday, August 9, 2006

I've learn something a few days ago.

There is always people who just does the talking who does nothing. Than there are also another kind of people who just does things and that's it. But there are also people who just come and go, just simply takes up space. Than comes another kind who just prays for everything and anything. All this kind of people can be found anywhere but you make the choice to be where you wanna be.

Suddenly felt strange, reminded of alot of things during Emerge but it seems so near yet so far. Nothing much I can do now. Lost is the word. Anyway if it's Your will, You will make it happen no matter what. It's just a matter of when.

Today we had our final practice. Strangely only when I almost got home, my left ankle started to feel the twisted feeling again. It has been happening a few times now after a few practices. And tomorrow morning is the show. 2 songs straight. God, You have to come through for me. Suddenly a lot of new revelations. Maybe it's because I'm walking through the valley. Before every great success is always long suffering, testings and .... And it's getting stronger. Tomorrow will be a great show. Amen!!! I need a breakthrough spirit and I need it NOW!!! GOD!!!

Draw me away Lord... Seek Your face... Nothing else matters but You...

8/09/2006 12:27:00 AM

32 more days...

Tuesday, August 8, 2006

I'm left with 32 more days...

Ha ha... Sounds like I'm going to die soon. Anyway I slept 14 hours today. Wow! I thought that was a miracle but I found out someone I know slept till 5pm. Than I realise mine was nothing. Ha ha... This really shows how tired we are. Anyway we had pm today in school as usual. Shall not comment much. Zip. After that I went down to Aliwal for another round of dance practice. It was good. But all of us are very tired. Finally we can blast the music without any restrictions. Ha ha... We had fun!!! Only one not there as he has recording. James, JIA YOU!!! Really must pray for him. Stretched to the fullest. Tomorrow is the last practice with everyone there. The final lap is going to be tough. God strengthen me and enlarge my capacity. I have to work tomorrow as well. My finances seems to be getting tighter and tighter. Left with around $20 - $30 for the rest of the week. This means it's impossible for me to survive.

This wed's performance have to be a good one. We will be doing 2 songs and we are doing the opening. I just found out that all the whole event is something like a CHC's event as all the participants are from CHC. Ha ha... It's going to be another time of fun. And after this performance is my official resting period. But I think I will have to continue working. It's not just to survive but I have to save up some money for building fund just in case.

Happy are the people whose Lord is God. Empowerment!!!

8/08/2006 03:29:00 AM

Tired but fulfilling

Monday, August 7, 2006

This week has been a very very long week. We had our 1st performance for our latest debut We're all in this together on Sat at Children Church's National Day celebration. It was definately a miracle. We had only 2 weeks to come up with this whole item including the recording. Our past performance all had around 1 month of practice time. This is a great achievement.

We had a few runs on Sat morning before the service. And the bad thing was it was very messy and alot of them missed out steps or dance to the wrong timing or getting injured. I can still remember how Mad grasp for air after each dance and Me and Aud injured our ankle. Didn't know hoe it happened but my ankle felt painful when it is twisted in a certain angle. But I just chu ga liao, dun care liao. Just trust in the Lord and do my best. Everyone said it was the best one yet. Only 1 or 2 minor mistakes. I am so glad God came through. Ha ha...

All I can say now is I AM VERY TIRED! Was having practices every night non-stop. It is definately tiring. And this will still continue on until our National Day performance is over. By the way, J7 will be performing at Pungol on National Day (Wed) in the morning. Our debut has been changing a few times. Today just received the latest copy. Still waiting for Pst to go listen to the song and wait for further instructions.

I went for FOP on Sat. The message was awesome. Although at times I was almost falling asleep but I manage to understand the whole message. I kept popping sweets and chocolates into my mouth to keep myself awake. God spoke to me during the altar call. Ha ha... I know my latest call. I'm trusting in You to bring me there. Ha ha...

Today we had our 17th Anniversary Celebration. It was fantabulous, hotacious, wondervelous. Ha ha... Great beyong words expression. Indeed time passes away quickly. I was looking back at the past __ years I had been in CHC. Wow!!! I'm definately changed, never the same. All I can say is THANK YOU LORD!!!

Going back to the basics. All about You Lord. There is no one else like You. My sweet Jesus, thank you.

8/07/2006 12:42:00 AM

Managing expectation

Saturday, August 5, 2006

Expectation management is really very important. When things don't go the way you expect them to be, than just expect the best out of it. I've learnt that the most ideal situation doesn't always happens. That is where your faith can be activated. If life is just a bed of roses than where does challenges comes. Learn to live with it, manage it. It only becomes a problem when it is bothering you too much. Learn to let go, let God instead. Maybe than you'll see the true meaning in life.

Some things happened recently, but I'm not telling you. Ha ha... And I'm now working. Just doing some data entry but it's very rush. Dunno how's the pay is going to be like but I think it's $50.00 a day. It's ok for me as I really need to kill time. Maybe that's the reason why I have been thinking so much.

Tomorrow will be children church big day. Guess what?? I'm not on duty but still have to be there because J7 is doing an item. Wow!!! Seriously still.... But anyway it's up to You now. I've done my best. This is definately a breakthrough item. We only have 2 weeks to do recording and learning of steps. I have been teaching for all 5 days now. No time to rest, serve God fully.

Giving it all up to You. If it's Your will, let it come to pass. If not, I'll follow You.

8/05/2006 01:46:00 AM

Strange...

Friday, August 4, 2006

Have been strange lately... Think this is the closest word I can find. Alot of things has been happening. I guess the NS reality is finally slipping in slowly and I'm really starting to feel something about it. I can only pray hard for the future. Someone told me, "you have to start planning for the future, moreover you are the eldest son, should start planning now, you are already an adult." Wow, like I really thought about that before. It was definately a reality shock. Going into adulthood is definately not fun at all but all has to go through it sooner or later.

I really spent time thinking giving it some thoughts and came up with some plans. But all I can say is that it's just a rough plan. No details are down yet. Maybe it's because alot of things are still not confirm like in army will I be full time or 8 to 5? See it's an unknown fact. There are many choices to make and I'm really lost in all the choices like choosing a fish in the sea.

Suddenly I feel stagnant... Everything has suddenly stopped growing. It just keeps going on the same way. I'm really going crazy soon. Cannot stand this kind of life. I have an urge to emerge above all this things but I'm just stuck. I wanna do alot of things but army is really restricting me. Cannot stand it. Why must all guys go through NS. Ahhhh... Wasting my time away...

Shall not complaint anymore. Ha ha... God is good all the time. You are the peace that guards my heart, my help in times of need. Depending on you. Help me!!!

8/04/2006 03:52:00 AM

5 Love Languages

Thursday, August 3, 2006

Ha ha... Guess what I did today??? I took a quiz in school. While I was surfing around, I came across this. So this follows...

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Acts of Service:		7
Words of Affirmation:		6
Receiving Gifts:		5
Physical Touch:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Is it true?? I'm not telling you. Ha ha...

8/03/2006 05:45:00 PM

Sudden thought...

Wednesday, August 2, 2006

Some thoughts...

Perfection vs Excellence
This 2 words seems to mean the same but actually not very much the same. Perfectionist aims to perfect their life in every area leaving nothing below than the best (assuming it's achieveable). Excellence on the other hand is aiming to be the best in all areas IN SPITE OF imperfection. After much thoughts, nothing can really be perfect no matter how hard I try. And it's due to Adam's sin. So why get so hard on myself when perfect score could not be attained. Excellence on the other hand could be achieved no matter how imperfect I may be. I am still man after all.

Serving with Excellence
And after knowing that, serving can be stretched to the next level. There can never be a perfect service but an excellent service can be attained. I can never please everyone but I can try my very best to serve everyone. No matter what the outcome may be, I know that I have done my best and that's enough.

Abba, Jesus, Holy Spirit
Ever faithful is the Lord... No matter what I am going through, I know that He is with me, especially during valley times. But it got me wandering is He still with me during good times. Ha ha... Of course! I reflected myself on the past few years... Many things came to me. Good and bad... No matter how far I go astray, He leads me back. No matter how tough the going may be, He comforts me. Late in the night You call for me. Your word for me always came just in time. He will never leave me alone broken, never leave me alone. His presence is always so strong when I call out to Him. His words brings comfort to my soul. I just can't stop falling in love with You more...

8/02/2006 03:51:00 PM

Testings & more testings...

Testings...

Today I had my very own PT training. Set an all time record for myself, 12:10.72 for my 2.4. Guess it was a great achievement but I almost ran my lungs out. I was getting slower and slower each round. No, have to hang in there. This is really getting a little too tiring for me. Haiz... Pull ups got worse. It was 4 and 1. Eeeeee... Cannot stand it. Starting to decline. God please save me in this area, I need Your help desprately. Not much time left and so much more to go...

Next on my schedule was J7 practice. Yesterday something interesting happened. Some SMU students asked us for help to choreo dance steps for a dance for a competition for their orientation camp. So I did help them. They were so grateful that they bought 2 super big gulps filled with 100 plus for us. Wah... Praise the Lord!!! I was indeed shining in the marketplace. Today we met again and they were like waving vigorously at us and were so excited to see us. Ha ha... It was really God's favour. But it was good. Can you imagine we were a blessing to the people at SMU when we were there. It was definately not by chance. Ha ha... Moreover I'm sowing into the future. Some of us intend to further our studies at SMU. So it'll be great if we start sowing now. Ha ha...

Today's practice was really draggy... All of us are so exhausted. Some things happened. Really testing.... Anyway I kept my cool and thong through. Today was super long as I finish up all the positioning. And latest news, we will be doing 2 songs this weekend. Oh man... Many of us have forgotten Happy Boys & Happy Girls dance steps. It means tomorrow's practice is very crucial. We have to go through Happy Boys & Girls and at least have the flow of We're all in this together. This is really stretching my faith level. God please help me...

Can't seem to sleep properly at night... Maybe I'm just too stressed up... Ha ha... But everything will work out well for those who love Him! I believe!!!

8/02/2006 02:12:00 AM

Time for some laughs!!!

Tuesday, August 1, 2006

Yesterday night was the most tiring night ever. Had service in the morning. And guess what??? Ha ha... So happy, my brother went for service. And he rededicated his life back to Jesus. Praise the Lord!!! And it was so easy, I almost forgot to ask him to answer the altar call when he was just right beside me. Thank you Holy Spirit so much for nudging me. I just ask him casually 2 to 3 times without any pushing and he said ok. Really thank God. He even teared when he was praying. The most amazing thing was when Pst Mike was preaching, he said something like that, "just a show of hand, how many of you will have attacks at night, or you will wake up seeing things or even have sleepless night." And my brother turned to me and smile. And I nudge him. Cause he experience this since his secondary school days. He went for the ministry service and got delivered. Really thank you so much, Abba!!!

Around 12.30am I received a call. It's from _ _ _ _. Ha ha... Fill in the blanks yourself. Not a trick question actually. Ha ha... Anyway taught the person POA (Principle of Accounting). I went through 3 exercise with this person and I realised something. I know why did the person fail so badly. Please read carefully. That person cannot read properly and some words in the question that person don't even understand. The worst thing is that that person just reads half of the question and assume what the question is and starts his answer. And all the time it's all wrong. Wahahaha... Cannot stand it. We spend almost 1 hour plus doing the 3rd question because of this. And careless mistakes. Buay tahan... For example, 3 months spend $10,000 and the person can write 10000 for 1st month, 1000 for 2nd month and 10000 for 3rd month. Spot the difference. And the person dunno when is the mistake. Ha ha... We almost redo the 1st month for more than 10 times. And mind you just the 1st month and we have 2 more months to go. It came to a point where I started laughing uncontrollably by the stupid mistakes. And that person joined me in the laugh as well. Wah man... God bless _ _ _ _. All the best for your exams.

Today was great. Had pm in the evening. It was really _ _ _ _ _. _ _ _ I should say. But no choice. Project deadline and exams are drawing near. What I can't stand is .... Ok... I shall keep my mouth shut. And here's a shout out to all NP CHC person. JIA YOU!!! Can see the stress level increasing tremandeously. Ha ha... All I can say is SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND ALL OTHER THINGS SHALL BE ADDED UNTO YOU.

Went for J7 practice after that. It was good I should say. Faith really moves mountain. We have all been praying for this person to be able to catch up with the dance. And thank God the person indeed caught up. Mind you that person is really very busy but hardworking. The person's schedule is packed to the fullest. It was indeed a miracle that that person can catch up. JIA YOU!!!

Everyone is really very busy. So jia you k... Spring cleaning has also just ended. And the worst things starts happening. Already have been attacked for more than 5 times. Press on, build resistance. Don't give in, look to You...

JIA YOU!!!

8/01/2006 12:43:00 AM