City Of Angels

tiring day

Saturday, July 31, 2004

i managed to catch some sleep today and was supposed to lead praise today but due to time constraint i did not lead. anyway i was quite tired, a few of us almost fell asleep in cell. i know it's bad but no choice. after that i met yy and kelly but kelly went to work. so me any yy ate at clementi macdonalds before heading down to sentosa. when we arrived at siloso beach, a lot of waiting and walking was done but the good thing was a bus came in time to save out legs. we went to camp site and stayed there till about 6.40pm and left for trapizza by the bus again. the whole event was fun but i think the food is not worth it. it's far too expensive. i expected something better. but anyway the salmon is good and i like it. after everything i went home then found out some things about my younger brother and yeah confronted him again. anyway don't feel like mentioning anymore.

7/31/2004 12:20:00 PM

super suay day

Friday, July 30, 2004

today had been such a bad day. met all the stupidest things on earth. anyway i woke up late and missed the first lecture but went for the next. first thing there, gwen walked past me furiously. when i said hi to her she ignored me. second thing, bell also gave me a bad hi which made my day a super black one. then got to know it's another problem. anyway when they don't want to say who can help? i know, GOD! so ask God to help you! then after lecture i was feeling better. got to know more. then the second thing came at home. a girl is at home with my younger brother. when i opened the door, i just stood at the door. she packed her things quickly and left. next i lectured my younger brother. by the way i know the girl... it's a long story... remember once about someone is after my life, she is also involved. i was damn pissed by then. my mother also came to know about this stupid matter. after that bell came calling me for help. ok shall not say more. i think i should keep in among us for now. anyway she felt better, it's good. then did hrm e-learning homework and some project. super sian. wonder when can all the problems end. seems like when this period of time where the projects and homework seems neverending, the problems arising also seems neverending but in fact growing. feel like don't care already but still have to. but it's good that i've learnt to be immune to some also. anyway tomorrow is a day to relax so hope this doesn't affect my mood.

7/30/2004 12:53:00 PM

so many projects at hand

Thursday, July 29, 2004

the projects are making me crazy. really become multi-tasking because of these projects. i have been shifting from one project to another in short period of time. anyway back to the main point. today finally went for cucom class on time cause i had presentation. The presentation to me was quite plain and looks a little messy but was glad that the tutor said that it was the best presentation she had seen. after that was image class. today we did dinning etiquette. it was fun and we ended class early. so i met ju leen, kelly, alan and yy. later on met siti as well. todays training was shiong for the pt. then we had a talk anyway both decision also same to me still affected. then next was stunt. we did 2-2-1 today. it was fun but quite sian. but it was like finally we are moving on and not stuck at the basics. after that i went home and did hrm project. it was super difficult. i don't want to mention more or i'll not be able to sleep.

7/29/2004 12:58:00 PM

tired and happy

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

today was late for blaw tutorial. had a hard time waking up. anyway after that i went to atrium, did hair extention. ha ha. it was a fun and exciting experience. after that i went to shop for mp3 player with yy and bought one benq one. i think it's ok anyway my brother is paying as it's my birthday present but i also chose the cheapest one. after that went for the other 2 tutorials. oh man, that was so boring and tiring. at cma tutorial i was watching videos in class as it was super boring. then at fmgt tutorial, i almost fell asleep a few times. but it was good that fmgt tutorial lasted only an hour. yeah! so good. after that did cucom project with justin till quite late than went home. currently i'm still waiting for the project to be sent to me while i do some other projects. today is overall quite moody, tired but happy.

7/28/2004 11:44:00 PM

enlightening day

as usual, i was late for lecture but not very late. anyway the lecture was boring and had a chunk of things to copy. sian. after that i went to atrium at aroung 12pm and did my cucom project. after that i had my lunch and went to hang around the stalls of my friends at atrium. ok, please come and support. a lot of my friends set up 4 stalls at atrium, one is precious treats, the other is absolute seashell the other 2 i'm not quite sure about the name. then did my cucom project with justin for a while inbetween and went for training at 5 plus. today's training was tough for me but i managed to endure through. today can say that i'm a little nua so kept going around to play discreetly. anyway something happened and all magnees should know. anyway had a talk with some of my guy close friends of magnum and also found out a secret from another person. ok i shall stop here. the rest is for me to know and for you to find out on your own. had a great time talking to them. seems a long time i last had a nice chat with them. after that came home to try and complete my cucom. managed to do most of it so let's see how it's done tomorrow.

7/28/2004 12:53:00 AM

boring day after all

Monday, July 26, 2004

woke up late as usual and was 40 minutes late for lesson and was marked absent just because of that stupid new rule. anyway after lesson did 2 projects than went for blaw lecture. but half way i went off to atrium cause the lesson was boring. i went to shirleen's stall and visited vera and wei wen's stall. i also took back some mp3 brochures. anyway today was a very boring day so i don't wish to say more. i went back home and did project again. this semister's project is really very tough.

7/26/2004 11:53:00 PM

tired day

Sunday, July 25, 2004

i woke up really very early today for the morning service. anyway i was feeling tired but very excited. anyway i was quite disappointed in the cell group. anyway i shall not say much. after all the services, i suddenly felt lost, because my goal is fulfilled. i just needed time to find another goal. so after that i ate 2 ice cream and paid my mission fund and tithe then went back home with chris while he went to woodlands to teach dance. i did some ief and hrm project before going to bed. today i slept very early as i'm very tired.

7/25/2004 11:33:00 PM

quite sad but still happy

Saturday, July 24, 2004

went to church very early today for children's church big day. today me, chris, june, ariel and audrey were on the mains. we were really very dependent on one another. we were all helping and leaning on one another to pull down the presence of God. but anyway everything was alright. it's just that the musicians had a little problem and there wasn't a kick in the music. it was the first time i acted with chris in children's church. it was really very challenging but it was ok. i asked june how was everything after the service, she said it was alright but i need to improve on my singing. then after that was the main services. anyway i did not dance cause there was some changes so i became the fireman. i did the props of the fire effect instead. but anyway very happy that 2 person got saved. at least still felt happy. i was really a little disappointed not able to dance but i did not really feel very disappointed because i know there's still a lot of room for improvement.

7/24/2004 11:09:00 PM

energetic

Friday, July 23, 2004

today i skipped morning lecture and slept for almost 12 hours. wow, i woke up very fresh at last. i'm so happy. anyway came for ief lecture but the strange thing was that i was feeling sleepy. after lesson came to canteen one. after that went to clementi to meet yu ching to practice praise for cell meeting today as i'm leading praise. i was a little late but the practice was quite smooth, but still have a lot of little problems. when it was the actual thing, there was some pause and the timing was a little different. other than that i think there was no problem.

7/23/2004 04:24:00 PM

finally seeing the sun again

20th july:
skipped morning lecture today and went for hrm tutorial lesson only. after lesson went to meet siti in the library and yeah we had a great chat. it has been a long time since we chatted. then after that we went to club house and had a fun time chatting with the rest there then went for training. training was very tiring at first because of pt. pt is really getting tough. we have to do more now just because we are considered seniors. anyway i quite pity the freshies as they have to do really a lot compared to last year when i just came in. after that was fun we played games all the way. but lenny was quite angry about de-brief. so anyway after that i went home and slept immediately.

21st july:
today overslept because my handphone low batt and the alarm did not came on. so i skipped blaw tutorial. after that i went for the next two tutorial classes. the tutorial classes are really mentally challenging. anyway after that i went to meet chew lin with gwen and we went down to clementi to meet pei shan and her member to eat at the hawker centre. after dinner we headed down to church together. today's choir practice was fun as usual. we learnt the emerge song properly and the sisters learnt parts. it was so exciting. anyway after practice i went for dance practice then performed for pastor sun to see. she said the dance was good. but i forgot 1 or 2 steps which is like ops. anyway it was fun.

22nd july:
today wore formal to school because of image role-play. it was really hot but anyway i still wore it. today i went for both is lessons. and as usual i was late for cucom. after cucom we celebrated zhifeng's birthday with some other pirates. after that me and bell went to blk 53 to practice the role-play while waiting for alan. and when alan came, we practiced just once and it was smooth so we just moved into class. we got b- for our role-play because our conversation was very brief. i was quite sian and she did not mention that what we say will be graded. but it's over. after that i slept for one hour and went for training. today's training was very shiong because my muscles are aching. anyway after that we did twist cradle. i don't even dare to catch again cause keep getting slap on the head and once on the face. half-way through the training, i left for church for dance practice with the drama team for rehersal. it was fun and at the beginning i forgot some steps but gradually i managed to forget lesser steps. it was very challenging as there are many steps to remember. after pastor saw it, he said everything was great so we left for home past midnight.

7/23/2004 04:04:00 PM

overall quite moody

Monday, July 19, 2004

first thing in the morning today i received 2 different smses. one from yu ching and the problem was on kelvin. she said he spoke to his ex cgl and he forbits him back to e33. so our kind yu ching wanted to invite him back to our cell group. i'm like what's wrong with you. his main motive in our cell group is just to hopefully be able to have a closer stepping stone into e33. and he has been saying a lot of lies. and this kind of people, 3 words, i can't stand. ok then next is bell. ok i shall not mention a lot but anyway i was already quite pissed with kelvin's thing so i sort of like not on a mood to encourage. anyway happen to saw lala on the way to school so we went up to class together. after class did image project on a role play. then i had lunch and talked to bell. after that met shirleeen and we went for lecture while shirleen joined her class. today's blaw lecture was as usual boring. after lecture went home together with huiloo, gwen, joanna, sara, ethel and mag. so that's about all.

7/19/2004 07:58:00 PM

still in a good mood

yesterday woke up late and missed my morning prayer meeting so i stayed at home all day till late afternoon i went to church for dance practice. before the practice eugene from dance ministry gave me a necklace and a cap from UK as my birthday present and a gift. it was so sweet of him and i like it. seems like this year is the year of cap. within such a short time i got 2 caps. anyway after that was dance practice, ryan seems to be in a bad mood today so we got reprimanded but anyway it was still fun and challenging as usual. after the normal practice was the practice for weekend connection. i thought everything was already thought to us but he altered some steps and add in some movements for the opening. so after a long practice, we went down to the stage. it was quite stressful as i'm still trying to remember the steps and now still have to remember the placement. it was tough i keep forgetting to move. and when i remember to move, i forget the steps. but anyway it was a good try for me.

7/19/2004 07:51:00 PM

finally a fruitful day

Saturday, July 17, 2004

went to church in the morning to sing for childern church. took a wireless mick today. today did a short dance on leg movements for the praise song "God is our Father". it was really fun. then we went down to lay hands on the children during alter call to pray for an impartation of the Holy Spirit to the kids. i can really feel the presence of God through out the whole service. after the service i saw brother mark. he said i did a good job and i was very happy cause he is sort of one of my idols. oh i almost forgot brother jason asked me today if i would like to lead praise in the other children church service. and if i could commit if i join hi 5. anyway this also make me feel happy as i think this shows that i have made some improvements. and after children church service, pastor said the singers did a good job and the praise went up another level. she also said i was good overall in my dance and groove. anyway next i went for choir for my service. this is the last time i'll be in service 2 as i'll be transferred to service 4 from next week onwards. sad. today's service was awesome pastor kong lay hands on people aged between 15 to 20 . and so i was being prayed for. it was aewsome. after service they celebrated my birthday for me. although it was not a surprise but anyway thanks. then we fellowshipped at cafe and learn the new song for tomorrow's prayer meeting.

7/17/2004 11:31:00 PM

somehow a little numb

Friday, July 16, 2004

yesterday i had a talk with bell till about 4am. she called me after reading my blog. i was happy of course but also worried about her. anyway knew some things. today on my way to school, siti darling msg me to ask me out for a chat. i knew we needed one but anyway i also knew myself i don't like to look for people but i like people to look for me. strange right but this is the way i work. thanks bell and siti i knew you meant good to me. went for lecture just on time. anyway i was happy that at least the class was sitting together. :) i hope everything will be well soon but i know it will not take a short time. anyway i don't want tb28's good image to me to be broken so fast. so tb28 jia you, Jia You, JIA YOU!

7/16/2004 05:44:00 PM

thinking too much

my day started off good but once i arrived in my class, i was of course sian. i was the only person sitting with other people. anyway after that somethings happened in my class, it is known as the "invinsible" conflict. anyway this whole i shall call "stupid" conflict is no conflict. i just don't know why girls like to keep things to themselves and not talk it out. so the so called "conflict" really became a true conflict. what stupidity is that. anyway shall not comment more on that. after the second is class, we were all waiting for the lift. but why must there be such a big gap. wonder what this class is becoming. so after that went to eat and went for magnum. today was exciting but physically and emotionally draining. i failed my 2.4km run which was not a surprise to me. then was sit up, just managed to pass it. then when it came to pull up's i just didn't know why i didn't want to do it. a part of me wanted to but another part of me didn't want to. i just lost control of myself and broke down. anyway i think only a few of them knew. i seemed so lost and no one to turn to. bell is having her own problems, the class like super stressed out with school work. magnum seems so competitive that to find a friend it is so hard. siti was no longer that close to me. but anyway thank God for yy. he accompanied me when i broke down. i told him a very brief summary of what is happening but actually there's much more. i just don't want to say it here. anyway after that we knew our try-outs results. to my surprise, i got the highest score. wonder how i scored so well when i thought i screwed up some things. but the worst thing was that i was not feeling happy for it at all maybe it was just after my break down i just didn't know how to react. so i just put on a smile. after that i went to studio wu for my dance practice. i was glad that ryan said all of us improved. anyway i think that i'm still thinking a lot which i know. but i can't stop it. it might be i'm too stressed. what lenny said is true i just wanna do the things i like to do now. i seem to just leave out the things i don't like to do. anyway wonder how long more can i brace myself up. too tired of all these stupid conflict and competitions. this is not what i want my life to be. it's so complicated. ru, i understand how you feel. one last question to ask myself. is there any one whom i can call a real friend? (entertaining someone is just talking about things on the surface. true friends is someone you confide in, share your problems with, encourage one another and share your joy and sorrow)

7/16/2004 01:14:00 AM

tiring but exciting!

Thursday, July 15, 2004

very sian. went to school at 8am when my class starts at 9pm. so tired that i read the timetable wrongly. anyway i almost slept in blaw tutorial lesson today. then did ief project discussion. we divided the work load accordingly then went to the library to look for resources. i can't imagine that i slept on the table half-way. anyway after that we went back home than at 5.30pm, i headed down to church for seminar. today's sermon was interesting and applicable. anyway u1, u2 and u3 i'm coming for you! the good thing is that tomorrow i don't have to wake up early for lesson so that's an encouragement. anyway i think i was a u4 in the past so u4s, you have hope. ha ha. anyway i have been thinking a lot lately. yy all your fault pass the virus to me. anyway i seem lost some how. so many things happened since school started. haiz. just hope that i will not be affected that much and that i will not take so many things seriously and learn to let some things go. anyway come to think of it, shawn, what you say is true. we always listen to others problems and encourage them. but it seems that no one is listening to my problems. seems like everyone thinks i'm free from trouble. anyway i'm not an angel yet and i'm still in this imperfect world. there's bound to be problem. forget it i think i'll just continue to act nothing happened and just let me drown in my own problems.

7/15/2004 12:27:00 AM

why does bad things happen to good people

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

woke up early today and went for ief tutorial. after tutorial lesson, we went to canteen 1 to wait for bell's friend so that bell can pass her something. after that went to canteen 3 to eat and went for blaw lecture. when the lecturer gave us break, me, gwen, sara, magdaline, ethel and huiloo went down to cathy cineleisure to sing at kbox. anyway me, sara, huiloo and gwen took a cab down first and started singing. soon after, ethel and mag joined us with a birthday cake. os now i'm taking this opportunity to say Happy Birthday Huiloo! it was really fun but tiring. we sang till about 8.10pm then went to have a drink and chat and play game. after that headed home and on my way home, i called siti at 11pm to wish her happy birthday so once again, Happy Birthday Siti! Ha ha so fun, two person's birthday. yeah. anyway very happy that they both enjoyed themselves.

7/13/2004 12:51:00 AM

i'm going for missions in the future!

Sunday, July 11, 2004

yesterday i woke up very early just to go to school and receive a full colours award. anyway it was quite boring but good opportunity to talk to other magnees. after that some of us stayed for lunch at canteen two and we played some games. it was sure fun. after everything i went home to put my cert and troply at home and went down for service. today's service was super awesome seriously. i can litereally feel the presence of God through out the whole service. after service we went to cafe to eat and fellowship till it's time for the arrival of the church bus, i took the church bus home.

7/11/2004 11:43:00 AM

happy yet not happy...

Saturday, July 10, 2004

8th July:
Happy birthady albert! today is my birthday yeah... i will be 19 this year. so happy it's once again my birthday. i was very touched by the people who wished me through sms. my family was the first to celebrate my birthday for me at 12am plus with a chocolate ice cream cake. back to the morning, today i wore my favourite style and went to school late for my is. after my first is class, which is intercultural communication(CUCOM), i went to sell my micro tb. then i went to sim to eat with my classmates. then i met some church friends and they wished my happy birthday. then i had a stomach ache after lunch which cause us to be late for lesson. hereby saying sorry to my classmates. anyway was quite pissed by someone but i shall not mention who. after class almost all went off to home and work, oh my, i was super discouraged. anyway still had bell, ru and gwen to accompany me to orchard to shop. we took a cab to cathy cineleisure to shop then went to heeren next. when we were shopping at heeren, ru found out that she lost her handphone. i'm super sad. really. she accompanied me for my birthday and she lost her hp. i'm thinking to myself of all time why must it be during my birthday celebration. anyway after a lond drag, we continued shopping. i didn't saw anything i liked so they gave me the cash instead. after that we went to cathy cineleisure's yoshinonya to eat. after me dinner, bell gave me a box of chocolates from shirleen as a birthday gift. i'm so happy to have chocolates. so after dinner, we went to shirleen's workplace to chat. then another bad thing happened. gwen's member and close friend met with a car accident. she looked very sad and lost. i just felt like why is so many bad things happening on my birthday. this is just so discouraging. but anyway i met thomas, my sec sch classmates that day too. so we continued to talk till about 8pm when gwen and ru decided to go back home. after that left me, bell and shirleen and we had a fun chat. it is really very happy. then i went for dance and bell went home at 9pm. on our way to the mrt station bell was apologising to me about the poor response for my birthday celebration which made me feel sad. but i was like it's ok. next is i met chris at dhoby ghaut mrt station and went to studio wu together. we thought we were late but ryan ended his class late. we learnt some new stps. it is really very challenging. but the good thing was that ryan decided to postpone the 2nd elimination round to sunday. so i'm quite happy. when i was at home next, i was very discouraged. only jessica from my cell group wished me happy birthday and a lot of my church friends forgotten too and also for my school mates.

9th july:
today went for lecture late again. then another boring ief lecture next. she could not finish her lecture again. then after that eat and talk with bell, shawn and some other pirates. then i left at 5pm for magnum. today met all the freshies. then had a surprised birthday celebration for me. i was very surprised! so happy! then after that went for pirates bbq with gladiators. anyway many things happened. both happy and not happy and i don't wish to talk about it. anyway some of our bonds had increased and i'm very happy about that. i'm also very happy to be able to have a heart to heart talk with bell ans gwen.

7/10/2004 01:07:00 AM

magnum try outs over

Wednesday, July 7, 2004

oh my, yesterday i had a class at 8am. i almost couldn't woke up. Anyway, i pulled through all the boring classes and went to convention to meet siti to practice tumblings and jumps before going to club house. when we were there, jason came to join us just to kill time. we met ju leen, kelly and jennifer and went to club house. jennifer went off with her classmates at atrium as she is not in the try outs. we had our try outs at convention centre, level 2. it was really very cold in the convenction. anyway i was number 14 for the individuals, 6 for dance and 6 and 8 for stunts. i think i was under performance but still quite good. just didn't help but have butterflies in my stomach before i went in. but anyway it's over. lenny said that overall it was satisfactory so i'm quite relieved. from the way he put it, i don't think it's going to be an elimination round. so quite happy. after try outs, i accompanied some magnees to eat at kap than went back home after that. so home sweet home. yeah to think of it, i miss my bed!

7/07/2004 11:41:00 AM

started on project...sian

Monday, July 5, 2004

woke up quite early today feeling tired and went for ief tutorial class. my ief project group mates are sara and bell. this grouping is exciting to me as i haven't work in a project with them before. after the first ief class, i think that our tutor, who is also our advisor, ms wong, is a nice person bur she is very strict. anyway tutorial ended early as the first lecture was half done. so after tutorial is our break. we ate and discussed briefly on our project and set the next meeting on friday. after that saw tb22, bell's freshies. we chatted till they left for lecture. then wei jian came. we were so happy to see him and he was also happy to see us. he is now more confident in the way he speak and really speaked a lot to us. anyway after that we went for our seperate lessons. after lesson went to meet yy, safiq, kelly and lip wee. then lip wee went home and the rest of us wento to buy jie wei's birthday present at heeren. after that went to cineleisure to eat at long john silver with justin and siti. after eating we went to watch spiderman 2 at suntec while justin went to meet his friends. after the movie we went back home.

7/05/2004 11:59:00 PM

haiz

Sunday, July 4, 2004

today woke up quite late and ate macdonals hotcake for breakfast than went online. after that went for dance practice with michelle and her classmates at jurong east. when we arrived at raffles place, we met chris and headed to studio wu. on our way to the studio, we met some other dancers. today we had a hip hop dance in the first elimination round. the dance is super fast and hard. anyway i was shocked and happy to get into the first round when i forgot some steps. the following thursday will be the second elimination round. so God bless me.

yesterday went for ccbv in the morning. it was quite fun but tiring. after that went for choir gathering and sang for service. pst kong preached a great word this week and i was really moved. anyway after that went to fellowship with my cell members and something happened (between my brother, kelvin and amanda). but later on i cleared everything with my brother in church's cafe. so everything was fine now. and just for your information, this has been bothering me for a few months so quite happy. now my brothers name has been cleared and the misunderstanding gone. i think this is the best birthday present from God till this time of my life. anyway very happy. but to know the truth, there will be some danger so kelvin told one of my cell members that he wanted to tock me (means take a parang{huge knife} to kill me). anyway typical gangster so know have to be quite careful just in case but anyway i believe that i'm under God's protection and God will not let anyone touch His children. so feeling not that worried at all.

7/04/2004 01:03:00 PM

sian

Friday, July 2, 2004

yesterday i went to school for is lesson than went to magnum booth outside canteen two but sad to say only one guy joined. anyway due to the recruitment drive, training started at 6pm. yesterday's training was again pt, tiring. then stunts was fun but also tiring. after training i went home and concussed in bed.

today came to school late for lesson. todays lectures are oh my, someone please save me. the lessons are so theory and so boring but i still finished it. my ief lecturer is the worst lecturer i have ever met. she is super sarcastic and boring. then after that my classmates went to decide on the project groupings. sad to say arguement broke out. it seems that all of them wanted to choose their own members and just pin-point on those that verbally choose thier members. sick man! anyway after that went for magnum's recruitment drive at atrium. it was boring and long. anyway did some stupid stunts which was like yucks so ugly. and some things happened. after that went for cell meeting. this is the first time i took praise for cell meeting. it was fun but scary. there was some mistakes but overall was good. after that went to eat with some of my cell members than went back home.

7/02/2004 05:13:00 PM