City Of Angels

feel so refreshed

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

i slept for 11 hours today. have not felt so good for a long time. then i went to school for hrm tutorial. the lesson was ok and i presented our group answers today and it was not bad i think. after that i went to watch garfield at blk 27. it was so funny, can't stop laughing. after that was training. today's pt is once again terrible in some ways. then training was fun we performed and it was exciting and funny. anyway i enjoyed myself. sorry yy i gave you attutude. too many minds at that time, can't think straight. anyway well done group 2. after that i went to kap to eat then headed home.

8/31/2004 10:41:00 AM

so exhausting

Monday, August 30, 2004

woke up super early again and reached school at 8am to do ief final preparations. guess what, i was the earliest and the only one on time. nevermind i continue reading up. when bell came, i looked through the slides and see what i could say. anyway while going through i felt that the points are contradicting and there's noithing much to explain and there's no link. i asked them for help but seems like i'm asking myself after all. bell kept saying ask lala, then lala told me it's understood. so when lala ask bell if it's inderstood, she agreed. in the first place if she knew, why didn't she explain to me? then i wondered what's the use of asking for help if the help is not met. after that was the presentation. the presentation went smoothly but i also don't understand the link. the tutor commented that she was pissed with everything. there's no link, a lot of repeatition and a lot of jargons. anyway it's finally over there's no more need of thinking about it. feel so good but tired. after that went to find koh poh tee to explain about the playgariam. she said that we are irrseponsible and actually i think we are not. but this time round my ief has been really terrible. i even failed my common test unlike my other group mates who passed quite well. then i realised that they really understood but i didn't. and they did not offer to help. ha ha what good friends!

8/30/2004 10:29:00 AM

started with a blow... ended with a bang

Sunday, August 29, 2004

today struggle very hard to wake up. when i reached jurong east, there's still justin and yixin who's late. so i slep at jurong east mrt station. later we went for practice on the actual ground but the stunts just keep falling. sian. and for the actual thing it's still the same. of course feel very sian. after that went to kfc to eat and we had a long talk. after that me and yy went to westmall. then each headed home. once i reached home i read up notes on ief then went to church for hi5 vocal and dance training. after that i went home to continue reading up.

8/29/2004 03:23:00 PM

fun but not so

Saturday, August 28, 2004

today i struggled all my way to school in tiredness. at 10.30am, only 3 person is there, including me. of course i feel sian la late for like 15-30 minutes. then worse, lip wee and yixin came even later. anyway our practice still went on. we learnt some new steps and the stunting feeling is so different. anyway the stunt managed to go up. half way training, lenny blew up. anyway i can't deny him. whatever he's saying is so true. think he is feeling as sian as us. anyway training ended late so i rushed home immediately to change then went down to meet kai boon, xian hui and xiuling. but i left them half way for the zpop concert. somewhere near the ending i joined them again then went back by cab.

8/28/2004 03:07:00 PM

finally over but still not relieved

Friday, August 27, 2004

today i went to canteen one as usual early yo study for hrm. nothing seems to go in and there's just no more mood to study. anyway i just try my best to study and memorise as much as i can. oh almost forgot today i met yy, siti and jesslyn at canteen one too. had a fun time chatting with them for awhile. sara helped me in some of the hrm jargons. after that went for the exam. i think the paper is ok but very tricky. just hope to pass this test as many mcq's question seems to have 2 correct answers. after the test, me bell and sara went to the library to do ief project. and to our surprise, during exam period and at such a time in the late afternoon, there's still a lot of people in the library. so we did the project then i went home to change then went for service. many people said that my dressing is nice. very happy about that. after service some of us went to a coffee shop to eat then headed home.

8/27/2004 12:04:00 AM

feeling so relieved

Thursday, August 26, 2004

i woke up early to study at canteen one. i had a hard time trying to understand what is it talking about. soon ru came. she helped me in a lot of stuff but i did not manage to memories all the trade theories and it came out. this paper is difficult to me. and don't know why i just can't do econs. i never score in econs. this paper is said to be easy but to me it's difficult. anyway wish me luck.. after that i went home to rest then went for cell meeting. after cell we went to eat at macdonalds than went home. it was very tiring as i arrived home almost 12 midnight. so didn't manage to touch hrm.

8/26/2004 12:59:00 AM

it's getting better

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

once again i woke up early and went to school early to study. i mixed up some of the things i studies and there's far too much things to memorise. but i still tried my best. the paper was ok for me. think i can pass. overall i know how to do the paper. after the paper everyone was feeling good as it was an easy paper. after that i went down to clementi to meet chew lin then went down to church to study. but half way studying, we watched a walk to remember in chew lin's lappy. ha ha. then after that we went for choir practice. today we learnt 4 new songs which were very nice. but it's very high once we go one octave higher. after choir practice, we went home together with zixiu. after i reached home i continued studying ief. another killer paper.

8/25/2004 12:37:00 AM

oh no!

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

woke up early again and went to school to study in the library. i managed to get help from bell and ru. so happy. anyway i tried my very best to memorise as much as i can. when i got the paper, there's only 2 questions and each question weighs 50%. oh my, i don't know how to do question one. i tried my best in doing something and i think the format is wrong. the second question is ok for me. so hopefully overall i can pass. i'm very scared i will fail this test. after the test everyone looked so demoralised. anyway we still need to go on. i went back home to study for blaw. sian, so many things to memorise.

8/24/2004 12:31:00 AM

good one!

Monday, August 23, 2004

today i woke up early and went to school to study fmgt. i studied very hard as the failure rate for this module is very high. when i saw the paper, i was quite jappy as i was able to do the questions. think i can pass this test. ha ha, so happy. after that i went back home and studied cma. this is another one i'm afraid as i don't know what is going on. wish me luck..

8/23/2004 12:21:00 AM

tiring...

Sunday, August 22, 2004

it's been two day since i had not slept well. i was feeling very sleepy the whole day. i went for service early in the morning then went to jurongpoint kfc to eat with my cell members. after that i went back to church to study. when the time is almost up, i went to gek poh cc to help out with the admin stuff for dance classes organised by my church's dance ministry. it was so fun but there was some mistakes (minor ones). you should know, it's the first time we're doing it. anyway it's very fun to see people who are first timers trying to dance. after that i went home and it's another time for me to study... study... study... HAIZ!

8/22/2004 10:24:00 PM

performance at imm

Saturday, August 21, 2004

almost couldn't wake up on time. it has been a while since i wake up so early. i went to school and practiced the routine before going down to imm. anyway i was late for aroung 15 minutes. the strange thing was that i was not the last one. we didn't manage to practice a lot of time as justin is in both team. group 1 kept practicing. it must have been hard on them. anyway when it comes to the actual performance, well done group 2. we've done it! i think it's good as it's the first time we're doing it. group one did great too. we learn from our mistakes so don't be sad. it's still nice. one more important thing, my mother was there to support us. ha ha. this is the first time she saw me perform as a cheerleader. so happy. after that i went home then went down to church to do a birthday sorprise thing for my church friend. since it's a surprise, i will not say it. and that's about it for today.

8/21/2004 10:16:00 PM

sickening day

Friday, August 20, 2004

i woke up late today and continued my studying. it's super boring. suddenly felt that i'm not meant for business. anyway i was supposed to have hi5 vocal practice but it was cancelled so i stayed at home to rot with the books. haiz.

8/20/2004 10:13:00 PM

seems like common test is really going to be challenging

Thursday, August 19, 2004

another day for me to sleep. but seems like my panda eye bags just doesn't seem to go away. after that did some studying but nothing seems to go in. anyway after studying, i went to school for training. we learn some new stuffs and practiced for this saturday's performance. we ended around 8pm then i rushed down for cell meeting. it was so close. i just made it on time when they touched on the first point. ha ha. no need to go for make up which i don't have the time to. anyway cell meeting will be changed to thursday for some time so i'll have to go for make up then. anyway no choice. seems like there's a lot of dilemas in my life in this period of time. haiz.

8/19/2004 02:19:00 PM

choir practice! yeah!

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

once again i had a long sleep. after that my mother forced me to pack my things instead of studying. after that i went to school at 5pm to meet mrs ong to discuss some stuff regarding ba day. after that i went down to church for choir practice. as yesterday was bro jason's birthday, we practiced a cheer for him before practice. today we learnt 3 israel song for this weeks praise and worship i think. after practice we celebrated bro jason's birthday as a choir. it was fun. i think he enjoyed it. after that i went to take the cd for the song we are practicing for hi5. it is reach from s clun 7. bro jason gave me his cake as he didn't want it. i ate it, it's mango cheesecake from nydc. it was very nice. i love it. i haven't been eating cheesecake for a long time.

8/18/2004 11:17:00 PM

Happy Birthday Grandpa!

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

finally had a long sleep for a long time. i woke up in the afternoon and went to pro trim hair studio at westmall to have my hair cut. i think my hair is quite nice. anyway who cares right. after that i had a long chat with my mother, finally too. we chatted a lot and yeah, it was heart-warming. after that we went down to a restaurant near chinatown point to celebrate my grandpa's 100th birthday. it was fun as i finally got to see my relatives. anyway i had a fun time there with all my relatives. we chatted again. after that i went home totally full and satisfied.

8/17/2004 11:08:00 PM

feeling very tired

Monday, August 16, 2004

supposed to wake up at 8.30am but ended up waking up only at 9.30am plus. i was still feeling very sleepy and tired. anyway came late to school library to do my ief project. really very sick of it. wish it will be over soon and it is going to be over next week. i was still very lost when i came and still is anyway God please save me. after that went to eat lunch then went to library again to do blaw project. seems like nothing to do. they kept doing. ask them what can i do then kept quiet. means nothing. finally went to search for some law books but it's redundant so... sian.

8/16/2004 04:07:00 PM

happy and excited... but tired

Sunday, August 15, 2004

i woke up 7 plus today for service at 9am. i paid $17.50 for the cab fare and is super broke after that as i brought $22 out only. after we reached church, i went to practice the praise song with bro kenny then waited for our turn. while waiting, i fell asleep. i can't believe it. i was super tired. anyway i still gaved my best and i think it was good. today's dance had the best energy. i think we did a great job. after that i went to cafe to catch up with some of my friends while waiting for hi5 vocal practice. while waiting half way, i received an sms which said that the vocal training was changed to a later date. so i fellowshiped with my hi5 friends whom i already know and went home. my younger brother kept using the computer until quite late then he finally let me use it. i tried to do project then but just cannot concentrate, keep shutting down so i decided to sleep instead.

8/15/2004 12:06:00 AM

singing and dancing

Saturday, August 14, 2004

today woke up at 8.30am and went to church for ccbv at 10 am. i was still half asleep at that time and my voice is still not warmed up. so i warm up my voice and tried my best to stay awake. i learnt a lot about singing today from june. and got involved in one demonstration scene and one acting scene. it was fun and exciting. i think i still got a lot to improve on in both singing and acting. once children church ended, i went to prepare myself for dance. to say the truth, my leg is aching and there's blister. very painful. and i'll be dancing for 3 services today. anyway i still gave in my best even though i'm not feeling well. i think i did better and better each service. i think i improved a lot. ha ha. anyway i felt great after that. after service, i took church bus back with chew lin ang gang.

8/14/2004 11:57:00 PM

first performance

Friday, August 13, 2004

today i skipped fmgt to catch my sleep. i woke up near 12pm and went for ief lecture. after lecture, i did a little discussion on blaw project with my group mates, bell, jacqueline and reuben. after that i rushed out of school and took a cab to church. we practiced both dance for the last time as today we'll be doing our first performance. today's performance was very bad. i missed a few steps and there was no expression and energy in my dance. i'm concentrating too much on the dance steps as i'm not familiar with the dance steps yet and i am still not very sure with the sequence. so after service, we were told to stay back to practice till about 12 plus and again took cab home at 1am with chris, pei shan and her friend.

8/13/2004 11:42:00 PM

another dance day

Thursday, August 12, 2004

i went to school on time for both is lesson. we did our image presentation. i didn't get involved much, just a demonstration and that's all because i was supposed to do china but ended up doing japan. than after that i went to eat before going to training. i was not feeling very good but anyway also became numb already. then we showed our routine to the client after one or two practice. i think it has been approved. then after one demonstration, i left for my dance practice in church. when i arrived at church, i realised they changed the pom dance. there will be 3 different feel, ballet, street jazz and hip hop plus breaking. all the guys will be doing hip hop. so i tried my best to learnt the new pom dance steps. after a short practice, we showed pastor the dance. pastor thinks that the dance is too short so the dance has been lengthed. we added on some dance steps immediately after that and practiced like mad on it. after pom practice, we learn the rest of the dance steps for the praise song and the positioning. i was very very tired by then cause it was already very early in the morning. we practiced till around 3 plus then took a cab home with chris. i arrived home around 4am.

8/12/2004 11:32:00 PM

back to dance

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

today i went for all 3 tutorials. i was feeling a little sleepy during cma. it seems a little redundant. after that i did image project with bell, donavent and grace at canteen one. then went to church with ben and pei shan for parade of ministry(pom). i went for dance while pei shan went for choir and ben for security. we did street jazz for pom and another jazz dance for praise song. we sharpen the pom dance steps first then learn the praise song dance step till very late. i was very tired. only managed to leave for home about one plus in the morning by cab.

8/11/2004 11:29:00 PM

should i be happy or should i be sad

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

8/10/2004 02:44:00 AM

Happy national day

Monday, August 9, 2004

today i had a fun time at sentosa helping them take photos and talk with different people. after that i went home alone to watch the ending of the parade and singapore idol. my god, singapore idol is so low class. just a bunch of idiots trying their luck. but there were less than a hand full who were really good. after that did some research before going to bed. and when i'm about to sleep, bell called to discuss some things about the project. anyway i'm happy i cleared it.

8/09/2004 02:12:00 AM

exciting day

Sunday, August 8, 2004

woke up very early today for service. i was glad i made it as i overslept and just made it for the last bus. i fellowshipped with my cell members and practiced praise. after that went to gek poh cc ro learn pom dance steps. after that went back church to eat and show pastor the dance. after that i went to sentosa for kenny's birthday party. it was fun but i think the sabo is too much. sorry kenny although i did not took part, i just don't wanna be treated this way. after that i eat, talk, play, clean up and slept there.

8/08/2004 02:28:00 AM

finally

Saturday, August 7, 2004

this is a first time since a long time i've been to a saturday training and not only am i on time, i also stayed through the whole thing. this is the 2nd training we had for the performance, it was ok. i was of course pissed but anyway i don't widh to bring back bad memories. so just keep it nice. after that i went home to rest and do some work.

8/07/2004 02:21:00 AM

good day

Friday, August 6, 2004

skipped fmgt lecture today for my sleep. but went to school for ief. after lecture we did ief project till very late. i really spent a lot of money buying drinks and food. anyway finally the project is almost done. but still have to do a lot of research. think i can finally have mondy to relax and have fun. but have to rush my work this weekend. albert, jia you! ha ha.

8/06/2004 05:17:00 PM

happy, not happy.. sad, not sad

Thursday, August 5, 2004

today finally woke up on time. strangely, i met joanna at jurong east mrt station. and we were also just on time for 61 when we arrived at clementi. however i was late for lesson because i waited for joanna and her group mates. the presentation of my other classmates were fine except for one which is quite boring. we ended lesson a little early and me, justin and bell went to canteen one to have our lunch with donavent and grace. after lunch we did our image project till about 1pm and we left the place. as there was no more lesson, i went to the library to catch up on my ief project. don't know how to feel now. my interview with lenny is at 3.30pm. feeling nervour, anxious or excited? will i smile, will i cry, will i be happy, will i be angry, will i be sad, will i stay, will i quit, will i endure, will i cheer, will i dance, will i sing, will i play, will i serious, will i be elite team, will i be in varsity, will i think, will i commit, will i give up, will i be thankful, will i regret, or will i not? i really don't know what am i thinking now. after reflecting so many things had happened. seems like i have gone through a lot. seems like i have endured a lot. seems like i have grown a lot. seems like i have known a lot. seems like i have learnt a lot. seems like i have lost a lot. seems like i have gained a lot. seems like i am hurt a lot. seems like i am cheered a lot. seems like i have cheered a lot. seems like i have regretted a lot. seems like i have let go of a lot. seems like i have compressed a lot. seems like i have been pushed a lot. seems like i have done a lot. seems like everything seems neverending. there's too much to get but in order to get, seems like there's something to lose. is it worth it i don't know. am i proud of it, i don't know. am i happy, i don't know. suddenly feel like saying "can someone live my life for me please?" anyway just wish me luck for the interview...
after that was training. it was shiong but better, don't know why. today did dance and cheer which was a yeah! to me. anyway i loved it. helped out some of them. at one point thought that larry was a communist. ha ha. anyway i also did some straight toss, gym and jumps. surprisingly i finally managed to do a good round off but it's just slanted when i came back. i still need to train a lot on my pike and around the world. but while doing pike i found out that my back is not so strong seems like it sprain but also not sprain. anyway continue to work hard. i think that yy and raymond's pike is almost there. just need some hard work sure can one. jia you ah!

8/05/2004 02:30:00 PM

finally could sleep

Wednesday, August 4, 2004

there's no blaw lecture today. it's a good thing cause i can wake up late. went to school in the afternoon for 2 other tutorials. cma tutorial was a little redundant. which means i have to study myself and fmgt was quick and on the point. i just love fmgt tutorials. so fast and accurate. her explaination was very clear and nice. after that went home to go ief and image project. suddenly feel very sick of projects.

8/04/2004 05:29:00 PM

slept and slept and slept

Tuesday, August 3, 2004

suppose to wake up for first lecture but could not so i set the alarm to the next lecture. still can't wake up so set to the final tutorial class. finally managed to wake up. it's hrm again. i was too lazy to bring the textbook. anyway the lecture was long and boring. but managed to learn something everytime. then after that met siti and feon at the library after lunch. me and siti chatted while feon did her work. after that went to club house early while some of them had their interview. next was training. really pt is getting worse. everything seems to multiply faster and faster. more and more new exercises seems to be introduced. i'm of course sian. seems like my endurance level is coming to the limit soon and i can feel it. next was stunt training. finally doing a routine but it was so last minute. suddenly need to re-plan all my schedules again. hopefully the dates will be released soon or somethings might just clash. i think those who were at training should be able to see that i'm super pissed. but i tried not to show it. and especially after that super enduring pt, my level of tolerance had dropped. and i was also happy that i was with yy and siti. also learnt some things from darryl. in the midst of training i had some thoughts in me. suddenly feel like going back to dance. anyway hopefully something will go right.

8/03/2004 12:17:00 PM

sick of ief

Monday, August 2, 2004

today finally on time for ief. the tutorial lesson was ok at first until the later half of the lesson, miss wong blasted at us. it was of course sickening. already don't know what is going on and still got time to scold. really very sian. then after that went to eat lunch at canteen one. then we headed to library to do ief project. i skipped blaw lecture to do ief. anyway the project is a total disgust to me now. nothing seems to link and what i need to do seems so broad that i don't even know when to stop. so sick of it. researh seems never ending. and when i finally found some matching, it's not relevant. what shit is that. anyway don't want to talk about ief anymore.

8/02/2004 05:10:00 PM

not enough sleep but didn't feel very tired

Sunday, August 1, 2004

i can't imagine i slept for only 5 hours and i managed to get up on time for service. really thank God for His strength. anyway today's service was good. it was about broken-hearted. just in time when i needed it. then after service went to fellowship but there was only a few of us. anyway after that i recorded the new song i wrote with gabriel but the words i fill in is still not smooth and good enough. anyway will try my best to amend it. then practiced a lot of praise songs with her. after that went off to dance ministry cell group with chris. it was fun and got some other revelations. after that we headed to church for dance ministry in ryan's car. he's car is really nice and smooth. today's dance practice was quite challenging but i managed to get all the steps. today they also celebrated our birthday for us. ha ha. so happy got a new shirt. but got a bad news. dance ministry is cutting down on the number of people. say the truth i'm quite worried. but anyway i think i should not worry.

8/01/2004 12:30:00 PM