City Of Angels

what a fun day finally

Thursday, September 30, 2004

today i went to church on time at 9am. but i was the only one ontime. and the girls are already late for more than one hour. pastor was in a rage at that moment. anyway after that was the rehearsal. the rehearsal went on smoothly. after that was the main service. the main audi wasn't full but the kids are so cute. anyway the item was done well and the respond was quite good. after the service, we went to interact with the children and it was sure fun. the second service was also great. we were so happy with what we are doing. many people liked it. after both services, we went to do rehearsal. after the rehearsal i took cab with kristine to cell meeting. i was so tired that i almost fell asleep twice in the cell meeting. i felt quite bad about it.

9/30/2004 08:52:00 PM

another bad day

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

today i managed to wake up on time but school was really terrible and boring. especially with my own class. i hate my class. tb28 rots. anyway after all the class i went back home to change my stuff then i went down to church for j7 final full dress rehearsal. the rehearsal went smoothly and we ended at 2am. overall i end the day well but tired.

9/29/2004 08:47:00 PM

bad day

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

today i went to school just for hrm tutorial but when i arrived, i received news that the class was cancelled. it was so sickening to come to school just for one class and the only class is cancelled. anyway after that i went back home to prepare to go for the wedding dinner. then my mother received a phone call from my father asking her to give $250 for the red packet then i'm like super angry. why can't he fork out the money and that we are paying one quarter of the amount. this is so sickening. all they do is just ask for money. so i have no choice but to go. when we arrived at newton mrt station, we went out to hunt for the hotel. then the worse thing was that when we called him for help he asked us to wait for us there when i found the hotel. and by that time we are already late and he's asking us to wait for him for 20 minutes. that's very sickening as i hate to wait and especially when i am already late. the next horror was that they were late for 1 hour. this is all crap. i was blewing my top then as it was already very sickening to pay so much then wait so long then came late. the next horror was that the bride and bridegroom had already went into the room when we arrived. really ruin my reputation. whenever i'm with him is equal to lose face. anyway after that, many other bad scene occured. don't wish to talk about that. when going home he insisted on sending us and we waited for very long again. sian.

9/28/2004 08:33:00 PM

first full dress rehearsal

Monday, September 27, 2004

i managed to get to my IEF class on time. today my tutor seems to be in a bad mood but it's also due to the students. some of them just keep chatting and laughing away. when she ask them questions, they don't know how to answer. sometimes i just think it serves them right but the bad thing is that they drag the whole class down. they are really like pests. anyway after class i went to eat then went home. later late evening i went to church for j7 first full dress rehearsal. i think it's nice. we went home exactly at 2am but it's worth it.

9/27/2004 03:25:00 PM

tired but happy after all

Sunday, September 26, 2004

i didn't manage to wake up on time for my own service again. so i went for the last service. the bad thing was that i had flu this morning. think it's my morning flu again. the message is very good. just what i needed. although it is not directly for me, but it is indirectly targetting me. after service i went for dance ministry dance classes. i attended both street jazz and hip hop. think the class was fun and a little challenging. after that i went back to church for j7 practice. the recording is out and it sounds a little funny but good. after that we practiced using the actual stage. then we did some amendments after a few trys. next we went to the studio to learn the amendments and try to memorise it. after that we went down to the stage again to do the whole thing with the amendments. after a few trys we had to go back as the church is going to close.

9/26/2004 01:12:00 PM

turning point

Saturday, September 25, 2004

today i had my final image class with an image consultant, jeffrey. he's image projection is really wow! and i've learnt a lot from him. think it's a fruitful class. after class i rushed down to church to sing for ccbv. at first i was told to sing as a side bv but when i arrived, i sang mains. ha ha. so happy. anyway today's praise was abit long and there were some mistakes but the children enjoyed it. some of us lost our voice after praise. worship was awesome. there was no mistake and the children were enjoying themselves in the presence of God. after ccbv, i went to eat at the cafe then down to school. somehow i got to see the np president challenge performance and i recorded it down. next we went to raine's house to celebrate her birthday. on the way there, i was having a deep chat with yy. he really helped me a lot. he gave me some advice. i haven't started to work on it but i'll find time to do it soon. i think during the party, i slowly opened up again to magnees. but i still feel a gap. i went home with yy and safiq. then i chatted with safiq but it's not finish.

9/25/2004 11:27:00 AM

there's no way back

Friday, September 24, 2004

think i had sub-consciously made a decision but i'm still not very sure what's that decision. this is the second third time i cried on my way home. i asked myself where are my friends? then i realised they are busy wuth projects. time seems to pass by so slowly in school. my class is no longer a place called mine but theirs. friends are also no longer mine but theirs. classmates started to backstabe and give verbal attacks. when will it end i don't care. all i wanna do is run away. think it's best for me to be alone. anyway loneliness is my best friend. went to look for kai boon for help. didn't help much but i felt better saying it out. i don't wanna give up but i'm too wounded to carry on. my body and mind is no longer mine to control. everything seems so uncontrollable. my path ahead me is so dark, i can't see. all i wanna do is stop at where i am now. i am too tired to continue. my heart aches but i feel like laughing. am i going crazy or is this a nervous breakdown? sometimes i feel like taking a knife to cut myself. maybe this will make my heart ache less. 0r should i just find a easy way t0 die then i will be suffering this much.

9/24/2004 01:08:00 AM

there wasn't such a day

Thursday, September 23, 2004

9/23/2004 01:30:00 AM

feeling good

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

today i finished all my presentations. which means my project is done. ha ha. after all my class i rushed down with yy and justin to indoor stadium. when i was there, i went to change then did my warm up. when everyone arrived, we warm up our stunts a little then next was the actual performance. i think it was ok but one elevator fell backwards. sian. think if lenny know it sure have to do basic again. anyway after that i went down to church for j7 recording. it went very smoothly. everything ended at 12am plus. it's sure tiring but it was fun. especially when all of us are tired and we are doing stupid things which are super funny.

9/22/2004 01:03:00 PM

bad news

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

today i woke up early and went to school to continue my study of CMA. this is sure a difficult module. i always don't know what the question wants. anyway the test was quite difficult to me as i don't know what the question is asking for. next on line was HRM tutorial. today was presentation. i was late for the class but anyway the class was quite boring so it was fine. after class i went to eat then went to clubhouse. there was a few people sleeping. i stayed outside and then slowly one by one came. i found out one super bad news. feel very sad. think demoralise too. next was training. pt was ok but when it came to group stunting, i was trying very hard to stay cool but really cannot take it already. got one new blue-black and abrasion. than i thought to mysely why am i getting this kind of things. why do i have to stunt, why do i have to give my best, why do i.. why do i? a lot of questions. then lenny came to talk to me but i was reluctant to answer him. many time i wanted to tell him i wanted to quit. but i hold back. is it because i don't like cheerleading, or i don't like stunting, or i don't like to people, or i don't like the methods they use, or... ... ah i'm going crazy.

9/21/2004 01:07:00 PM

didn't went to school today

Monday, September 20, 2004

today something happened to my handphone, the alarm time all wrong so i woke up half an hour late for class. this means that i don't have to go already. so i work on the last bit of my presentations slides and sent it to my group members. after that i watch some tv and study cma.

9/20/2004 01:04:00 PM

it's been a super long day...

Sunday, September 19, 2004

i woke up at 7am then rushed off to somewhere near pasir ris mrt station to wait for the church bus. on my way to church, i fell asleep on the bus. next i went to change then met the choir and learnt the new praise song. that was quite a difficult song in the phraising. anyway i sand for all 3 services. my legs were like braking apart. anyway after singing, i met chris and went to gek poh cc for dance class. next i went back to church for j7(hi5) practice. then went to main audi to practice a few time. then i went home to complete mt fmgt project. it sure is a tough one trying to figure out the figures.

9/19/2004 01:42:00 PM

my legs are aching

Saturday, September 18, 2004

today i woke up quite early and went to church for ccbv practice. it's been a long time since i went to children church. the feeling was so good. i've learnt a new worship song which was very nice. i think the actual was quite good. they said we are still quite reserved. ha ha so have to give more. anyway i enjoyed myself throughout the whole thing. next i rushed down to downtown east to magnum chalet. when we arrived at the bbq pit, i quickly searched for food. i'm so hungry. we stayed up till very late chatting and taking photos. think the juniors are fun people too. ha ha. had a lot to talk about. i slept at 5.45am plus till about 7am.

9/18/2004 11:22:00 AM

happy mood today

Friday, September 17, 2004

today as usual i slept all the way and went for ief lecture. i was a little late but none the less i was there. the lecturer did not manage to finish teaching. after class we discussed a little bit on ief and blaw presentation. next i went to canteen 1 to eat then went home for a short rest. when it was almost time i went to cell meeting. after cell we went to s11 to eat then each went home on their own.

9/17/2004 11:00:00 AM

haiz...

Thursday, September 16, 2004

i am late again for cucom. anyway my class ending soon. next week is the final exam. then after class i went to sim to eat. next class was image. the lesson was as usual fun. ha ha. this is the last lesson with our tutor. the next lesson will be held by some mr. singapore. i think it'll get more exciting. after class i went to canteen 1 to eat. to my surprise, there was a lot of magnees hanging around. felt so happy cause usually i'll be alone. we hang aroung till about 5pm then we went to change and went to club house. the club house really looked different and nice. when training started, it is ok. but it got worst. it's like going back to the training camp. sian. i thought they said it's just once every year it will be like that but seems like magnum is moving towards that kind of training. i think i'm still waiting till one day where i can't take it anymore and just quit. i think it's going to be soon. my stamina is getting lower, strength is getting weaker, tummy is getting bigger, most of the time not having enough sleep. moreover, studies also need to buck up 100 times more. i don't wanna fail any module and retain. this is really bad.

9/16/2004 06:01:00 PM

it's been a long day

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

today i managed to wake up on time for blaw. the class was a little dull but it's ok. after class i went to the library to watch a sword-fighting show. think it was very nice. it really caught my attention. after the show i went for cma late but he marked as on time so... he he he.. happy la. and just before i entered my class i saw deborah, feon, eunice and audrey. then i said HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY! ha ha. hope you had a fun time. then after cma was fmgt. my group presented and since i did not do anything, i was the presentor of the whole presentation. it was ok. we ended class early. next i went to eat then headed to jp to shop shop. then something happened i met a sicko when i'm in the toilet. he's doing some r(a) rated things which disgusted me. i was of course scared and quickly ran out of the toilet. the good thing was that he did not follow me after some distance of walk. oh my, what a pervert. next i went to church for hi5 practice. but before the practice we had prayer meeting. the presence of God is strong man. really felt very refreshed after that.

9/15/2004 03:36:00 PM

fun training with the juniors

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

today i sleep all the way and came for hrm tutorial in the afternoon. today was my group's presentation. although i'm not prepared but i think our group did a great job. well done guys. we were also suppossed to have just 15mins but we took 25 mins. oh no. but the next group took 26mins. he he.. so we not that bad la. after class i went to clubhouse and chatted with crystal, xiwen and lip wee. after a short while xiwen left. siti and justin came. ha ha. it was a fun time chatting around and catching up on stuffs. next was training. today's pt is not as bad. due to lack of seniors, we were not able to train on our own so we train with the juniors. i think it was quite fun to train with them. suddenly felt like a junior again. it was also another time for us to recap on our basics. after training we celebrated pamela and audrey's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAMELA, hope you had a joyful day..

9/14/2004 03:23:00 PM

ohana ba was fun

Monday, September 13, 2004

today i was late for IEF tutorial. the strange thing was that i met chew lin, lip wee and siti on my way walking into school. ha ha all late together. today's tutorial was short and sweet, got to hear a ghost story. after class we went to canteen one to finish up our FMGT project then went to level 5 to print the project. by that time lecture had already started so i decided to skip it. i went to convention next and saw jing yi's sc group recruiting people. as i was free, i hang around and chatted with them. at around 3pm, i went down to the basement toilet to change into my hawaii outfit. then we went into the lecture hall for the rehearsal. it was fun working with them. next was the actual thing, as we were at the backstage, it was very stuffy and hot. and we waited quite long as the hall is not even half full. when it started, we all had a fun time playing and laughing around. everything went on smoothly and the winner went to the 7th pair. the male lecturer dressed up like a girl. it was so funny. after ohana ba i went back home.

9/13/2004 01:38:00 AM

tiring day

Sunday, September 12, 2004

woke up late today for service as i was working till 3am plus in the morning doing my FMGT project. anyway the message was awesome and i was touched by God during the altar call. after service, i went to jp to shop shop. bought a moisturiser... trying to apply what i learn from IMAGE class. ha ha. anyway after shopping, i went to macdonalds to eat. oh my, their customer service is bad, in my view. just because i use the student privilage card, they did not allow me to claim the free sundae. the worse thing was that the queue is super long and they are very slow. to make things worse, the manager did not even apologise, she just gave me an attitude that is like "it's suppossed to be this way". so pissed with their low-class standard. after lunch, i went back to church for dance practice. i danced till i forgot the time, anyway half way i went for hi 5 practice. today there's no vocal training. there was only dance practice. there's some changes in the step and positions. so i was feeling a little lost but anyway i managed to go through it. after that we had dinner at a nearby coffee shop then i took a cab home. the cab uncle was so sick. he kept giving a a "killer" look. like he is going to murder me. keep asking me questions but i sort of kept "huh" to make him fed-up.

9/12/2004 01:23:00 AM

so fun

Saturday, September 11, 2004

today i struggled waking up. the good thing was that yy called me to ask me something. that totally woke me up. after that i rushed my way to the schools atrium. however, i was the first to reach. shortly after that, yy came. then we called the rest. all late. so we went to eat at canteen three. after that we went to canteen two to meet eunice to do some of the song stuff. then we met raine's group. only three of them so we went off together. next we went to blk 31 to find a room. but all the rooms were locked. so we went to the library. finally justin and glen appeared. they are late for one and a half hour. but then the library is full so we went to convention. on our way there at the atrium, we saw yixin's group and raine's group left behind. we were on our own practicing our stuff. think it was quite bad. next was the actual performance. it was really funny but some a bit no link. anyway had a lot of fun. congrats to all the winners and everyone did a great job. after the performance, some of us went to kap to eat. after eating i went to jp with safiq and went to popular to buy some stuff. then when my sec sch mates came, we went to eat at fish and co. the stingray is so nice and filling. all of us feel so bloated after that. after eating we went to shop for felicia's present but could not decide on one yet. after some shopping, i went home and completed my fmgt project. finally, it's over.

9/11/2004 02:36:00 AM

fun but tiring day

Friday, September 10, 2004

today i struggle to wake up early to go for the ohana ba rehearsal at 9am at convention. anyway waited a long time and found out it was one of the ba society's person class who sabo me. anyway it was ok. just for fun. so if you have time and the ticket, you can catch ohana ba at lt68e, convention at 4pm to 6pm. after the rehearsal i went to lavender the immigration centre think it's call sir to collect my new passport. think it's very nice anyway after that i went to bugis to buy something for tomorrow's talentime. i shall not disclose it so that i will not accidently leak out anything. after that i went back to school for ief lecture. lecture was very intense today. only two page but so much explanation. after lecture i went to the library to do fmgt project. at 4.30pm i went to canteen one to eat then went up for the ohana ba meeting at staff lounge. next i went for cell meeting at clementi. i had a lot of fun hanging out with them.

9/10/2004 01:22:00 AM

best friends hurt me the most

Thursday, September 9, 2004

today i went for class a little late. felt a little sleepy. anyway after lesson, i went to sim to eat and a few of us celebrated joanna's birthday. after that we went for image class and the class was fun. it was on skin care. i learnt a lot of new stuff. after lesson i ate at canteen one then went to club house. on my way there, i went to atrium and saw raine so i hanged around till yy, kenny and safiq came. then we all went to change and we discuss on our talentime. i think i sort of made yy angry. so sorry about that. the next thing was training. we managed to get the stunt up finally. well done people. so happy.

9/09/2004 01:52:00 AM

almost finishing the dance

Wednesday, September 8, 2004

today i finally woke up on time for blaw tutorial. anyway i scored well for my blaw. so feeling quite happy. anyway halfway throught the tutorial lesson, i went off to prepare for performance. but when i reach club house, there's only 3 of us. so we called the rest and checked where are they. anyway no one was there to open the door so some of us left for lunch. on our way back to the club house, yy received a call from audrey and was told that the performance was postponed till next semister. so we went to the library to rot at one corner as there's no room available. anyway we had a lot of fun there. so i went for cma and fmgt tutorial after that. i scored well for cma too. i was quite shocked to get so high. halfway through fmgt tutorial, i fell asleep. cannot blame, too tired. then next was ief retest. i think the retest standard is about the same, no difference to me. so after the retest, i went home then took a cab down to church for hi 5 dance practice. my leg is aching from the over-use of it. anyway we completed drilling through all the steps. and it was really breathe taking to complete the dance by itself. i think i'll be too tired to sing as well.

9/08/2004 01:55:00 AM

fun but tiring

Tuesday, September 7, 2004

today i slept all the way and went to school for hrm tutorial in the afternoon. the lesson was quite interesting and me and reuben joined the two china gals for tutorial work and reuben presented this week. after class i went to club house and run through some dance steps and sang some songs till slowly one by one came to the club house. today's pt was crazy. we ran 2.4km today. i felt like i was dieing when i finished running. anyway the stunts we did was challenging and fun. work hard flyers! i know you can do it. then we helped the juniors to do double take. it was the same feeling as we just came into magnum. all the same usual mistakes. anyway it was fun. after training we did once together and each one went up once. ha ha. anyway good job. overall felt my leg was breaking especially after the 2.4km run,

9/07/2004 01:43:00 AM

changed my passport

Monday, September 6, 2004

today was almost marked absent for ief tutorial. anyway i came late but still went through all the other group's presentation. it was i think better than our group's presentation. anyway the class delayed for another 1 hour to have all the groups completed their presentation. after class i went back home to take my passpost. somehow i took a long time before i went down cause my mother asked my brother to do it with me but he was having his N' levels listening comprehension. so i went down first, took the queue number than went to take a new photo for the passport photo. i like it as it was nice. but the queue was so long that after taking the photo, my number had already past. so i went to take 2 new numbers. my brother's number had past but he was still on his way down. anyway we had a long time waiting for mine. i will be able to collect my new passport on friday. after doing our passports, i went to take another passport size photo. and it was once again nice. i'm so happy. when i reached home, i completed my hrm project by adding in my bibio. now i'm left with the slides and i'm done.

9/06/2004 01:27:00 AM

hi 5 is getting there

Sunday, September 5, 2004

today i woke up late as yesterday i did project till 3am plus. i couldn't wake up on time for service. i went for service 6 instead. after service i went to toa payoh for yy's gathering. it was again so fun as they took funny videos again. anyway we had a fun time talking and eating. i left earlier as i had hi 5 practice so i rushed off but i was still late. anyway the vocals training with sis ally was fun and interesting. learnt some new things. after that was dance training with geri. we finished the whole and the positioning for the front parts and run through it till it was quite late. we went to the coffee shop to eat then headed home by cab. when i was back, i finished the hrm bibio around 2am plus.

9/05/2004 01:27:00 PM

elite team

Saturday, September 4, 2004

today i woke up quite late and went for training. today my physical condition is not that good. feeling quite stiff. but managed to go through it. then we mixed around with the juniors and did stunts with them. i think it was quite fun but got injured. anyway after that was the interview. i got into the elite team. ha ha so fun. after training i went down to ghim moh to meet kai boon and xiu ling and went to xian hui's house to celebrate her sister's birthday. but it was more of a we are chatting among ourselves and trying to tighten the gaps among us. it was really fun. we took photos and funny videos. even until now i still can't stop laughing.

9/04/2004 01:10:00 PM

completed blaw project

Friday, September 3, 2004

today i woke up late as usual and was late for ief lecture. anyway after ief lecture, we went to the library to complete blaw project. and we did. we completed our blaw project at about four then i went to buy chicken pasta at splah, atrium, then headed home. the pasta really tasted good. when it was almost time, i went ti clementi for make up cell meeting. bro kelvin preached well and i enjoyed myself there. after cell group i went to clementi macdonalds with ryan to have dinner. we chatted on a lot of topics. one of which was his business with alfred. i was really amazed as he is such a young entrepruneur. anyway i will try my best to help them. they print grafitti t-shirt with their own design and brand at $15 each. not bad. affordable price. think i'll buy from them when i find the nice design.

9/03/2004 01:54:00 AM

something fresh

Thursday, September 2, 2004

today late for lesson again but only for 5 minutes. anyway i think the lesson was fun but a little dull. after cucom i went home as there's no image for guys today. when it was almost time i went back to school for training. today's pt was stretching again but had a long break after that. after the break we touched on a new routine. it was fun learning new stuff. we managed to get the stunt up for a few time. quite happy with it. well done guys!

9/02/2004 01:37:00 AM

dance suits me best

Wednesday, September 1, 2004

today i woke up early to go for blaw but found out that it's e-learning. sian, so i went back home. after that went back to school for lesson. today lesson were long and draggy. got back fmgt paper. just pass so felt nothing to boast about. after lesson i went to canteen one to eat then headed down to church for hi5 dance practice. we practiced till quite late but it was good. we did some drilling at the beginning then learnt new steps. we finished learning almost all the steps. now all we need is practice. keep working hard people i know you can do it.

9/01/2004 12:12:00 AM