I fully understand forgiveness as a lifestyle. Let me tell you, it is not easy. Especially when you get to be with that person daily and you need to LUN!!! But by hook or by crook, THONG is the word. If you can see how much I have LUN, you will understand how much I have THONG there. And this is crazy. I'm giving up my work to do a "social work", which means free labour. And this is what I get in return. Come to think about it, my rate outside is much better and I get to do whatever I want to.

Please allow me to vent it all out for once. People are the strangest thing on planet earth. You cannot live without them but you need to live without them at times when they get _______. Well they can really make or break your happiness. Happiness is a decision. You can choose to be happy. But some people makes your choice so much more difficult.

There are alot of people whom I know backslided because they have conflict of perspective to their leaders. Wow!!! I always tell them this is not a perfect Church and the members are not perfect. How new is that excuse? You don't need a super intelligent person to tell you that. And allow me to say this, Christians are really more and more protected, but in another way they are spoilt. Yes, we do want the best talents, music, lightings, environment, preacher, ... .... But they forgot that if they do not guard their hearts, renew their minds daily, they are just going to another party. Sometimes I wonder why Christians can really get on my nerves. They think they are SOOOOO GOOD, but they are just a frog in a well. And I mean it, a FROG IN A WELL. They only experience the best but they do not know how much it takes to get there and they think it's instant. Taking things for granted. Well, than God bless you. If you do not want to work hard, than be sure than your downfall is near. If you just want enjoyment and no hard work, that get out of my way. I have been through so much and still going to. If you do not wanna work, than go to a community club instead.

Anyway enough of all the problems. Remember to be like me, always lift up your eyes on Jesus. Ha ha... He is always my solution. Even if I may not be in the wrong, He is my eternal judge. Many times I feel wei que but He is my educator, encourager, empowerer. Ha ha... Help me forget. But I know it's going to be hard as I have to see _______ almost daily. But it's going to be over soon. I wanna work, I have stopped all because of this. But I don't care now, I will work. My finances are running low again. But You are my provider. Amen!!! Jesus is FIRST in my life!!!