Longsuffering.

Things happens so fast. Just a blink of an eye, more storms are approaching. Weird things have been happening. What's worse? My deja-voo of a porblem came to pass. And it really did happen. Amazing yet unbelieveable. How can my mother be so easily cheated. Moreover when she is trying to help someone else's son. I know that she knows it's a mistake but out of support she still wants to step into it. This is motherly love. Sacrificing herself for others, moreover not her own son. How should I react? Lord, teach me...

I will keep my past victories close to my heart. Never forget what we have gone through. A new level is approaching. All of us knew it. But am I prepared for it? Many times I ask myself... Why would God ever choose you. There are so many others much better than you. Can I ever do it, can I ever make it that far, will my drems really come to pass? Lord, help me...

My faith is leaking, my hope is failing. Too many things are happening back home. God, protect my back door. I can't be serving you totally and my back door is being attacked. I wonder how long more can I withstand the enemies. But no matter what, I will continue to press on to the upward call of God. Lord, empower me to do your will. Light up my short and narrow path. Anoint me to do your will. Save me from the enemies. I don't have much time left. Everything is so tight. Renew my mind, Lord. Restore my soul. Guard my thoughts. Stay with me, do not leave me alone in the valley. I need You Lord...

New discouragements, new wounds, new hurts are formed. All I can do is to offer them up to You. Will time ever heal? But I do not have much time. Can I pull through?

When will the sufferings end. It's no longer a battle between flesh and blood, but the principalities. I need You Lord more than ever before.

Psalms 73