today i woke up early and went to school to continue my study of CMA. this is sure a difficult module. i always don't know what the question wants. anyway the test was quite difficult to me as i don't know what the question is asking for. next on line was HRM tutorial. today was presentation. i was late for the class but anyway the class was quite boring so it was fine. after class i went to eat then went to clubhouse. there was a few people sleeping. i stayed outside and then slowly one by one came. i found out one super bad news. feel very sad. think demoralise too. next was training. pt was ok but when it came to group stunting, i was trying very hard to stay cool but really cannot take it already. got one new blue-black and abrasion. than i thought to mysely why am i getting this kind of things. why do i have to stunt, why do i have to give my best, why do i.. why do i? a lot of questions. then lenny came to talk to me but i was reluctant to answer him. many time i wanted to tell him i wanted to quit. but i hold back. is it because i don't like cheerleading, or i don't like stunting, or i don't like to people, or i don't like the methods they use, or... ... ah i'm going crazy.